söndag 25 december 2016

The Year Of Hell (and Heaven)

 Ok, so I told you before about my health issues and back when I announced my reappearance in the blogging universe I honestly thought that it couldn't get any worse. Boy, was I wrong! When I started this new blog I was on sick leave  from my retail manager job and having a couple of months rest renewed my energy levels a little bit. Being the productive and creative soul that I am, I felt very restless being home for such a long time and was eager to get back to work. My doctor (who has been an amazing support in all this) agreed to let me go back to work 50% and so I did. It felt so good to be back! Suddenly I almost felt like a complete human being again. But, still, I had this endless tiredness swallowing me every day.

My days were literally just going to work for four hours and then sleeping all afternoon waiting for my fiancé (now husband -wohoo!) to come home, having dinner and then going back to sleep again. I tried to exercise but whenever I did so I got so sick I had to stay in bed for days afterwards. I felt like a 30-years-old trapped in the body of a 90 year old lady.

Finally at the end of summer I got to go to a specialist who diagnosed me with fibromyalgia and myalgic encephalomyelitis (ME). What a relief to have a name for the living hell! I'm so grateful that it's not something lethal even though this means that I will probably wake up every day for the rest of my life in pain and with excruciating tiredness. I have had to make a lot of adjustments in my everyday life to make sure that I don't overstrain myself and it's going to take a long time to accept that I'm not able to do everything that I once could.
And then this surge of inspiration made me feel almost like my old self again. Almost.
If you made it this far through this massive amount of text; thank you! Thank you for taking your time listening to my story!

So what's up with you all? Have 2016 treated you well? I hope you're all having a lovely holiday and with any luck I'll see you soon. :)

P.S. Extra points for the person who can spot the Star Trek reference ;D

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